Update
I sort of gave myself a weeks break from dieting…I wanted to be able to get into a routine again with school and dieting is the least of my worries at the minute. I think I’m moving house this week? Not sure, but I know that may involve a few nights of takeaway food.
Anyway I find myself eating a lot more in the evening. I get really really peckish! Not hungry, but I just want to snack. I think eating a more filling dinner would solve this and not staying up so late.
My current food “addiction” is cereal. I usually eat a bowl for breakfast, but recently I’ve started snacking on it too. The calcium I get from the soy milk is good (I’m not a vegan but I don’t like milk) but there’s loads of sugar and carbs in my choice of cereal (chocolate shreddies!). :( I’m hoping I go off it soon. Anybody else go through food phases like that, where you keep eating a certain food and it’s soooo good but then one day you wake up and hate it?!
I’ve been weighing myself the odd time, and my weight has been relatively steady at around 138-140lb. I’m still a bit pissed at myself for letting myself gain all the weight I lost during Christmas, but that’s what I get for starving. That’s the last time I’m doing that. As long as my weight doesn’t go over 140lb, I think I’ll be happy. 139.9lb is good but NOT A 0.1 OVER 140LB!
Well I’m going to enjoy my last day of non-dieting, and eat some pancakes. :)
+04/01/11
Cereal 120
Cereal bar 127
Grapes 50
Yogurt 75
Sandwich 140
Pineapple 80
Crisps 175 (they were so worth it)
Soup 100
Bread 100
Dark chocolate 80
Hot choc 34
139.8lb/139.2lb (I can’t remember) this morning…And burnt 660 cals at gym.
My entire body aches because of the toning exercises yesterday, but in a good way. I love how tight my stomach feels. :) I will be doing them four times a week, so I didn’t do them today so my body can repair a bit. Tomorrow is no gym day, so I will do toning tomorrow. I need to start stretching every morning again, my flexibility is gone!!!
Back at school today. Good because I am out of the house and not bored all day, and I go to the gym straight after school, no question of whether I can be bothered. I go. However there is SO much temptation!!! In history today, my teacher brought our class (there’s twelve of us) hot chocolate, flakes, marshmallows and chocolate fingers!!! Geez. I didn’t eat any. Then my friend had a box of chocolates and kept offering me and I resisted. Then I got to French and someone had a huge packet of sweet chili crips, which they shared with the class (eight of us) and I couldn’t resist! They were freaking good. So worth the 175 cals. So YAH. Imma go watch Jersey Shore. :)
+03/01/11
Saturday and Sunday were huge binges and this morning I was back up to 140lb. FUCK. I am really hoping it was mostly water/food weight and I’ll have a huge loss tomorrow…Well today has been very healthy.
Banana 100
Raisins 50
Toast x2 200
Smoothie 150
Egg 80
Orange juice 50
Pineapple 80
Pasta 250
Cereal 120
Plus loads of exericse - walk to station, walk around city, walk home from station, toning exercises and burnt 500 in gym. I went on a stair machine (idk what it is really called?) for the first time, omggg. I was sweating so much. I also went on the bikes, I never really use them but I want to build leg strength. I’m about to walk to Tesco and back with my mum. I feel so good. I’m gonna hurt in the morning though. :)
+31/12/10
Forgot to do this yesterday.
Boiled egg 100
Toast 100
Mini vege sausages 100
Pear 80
Pasta 250
Soup 100
Bread 100
Pringles 200
Chocolates 200
-800 at gym.
Higher amount of calories than I have eaten all week, probably explaining why I put on 0.8lb when I weighed this morning (was 135.8lb, now 136.6lb). I really thought the 2hrs of intense cardio I did would have boosted my metabolism!! I didn’t even want to work out but I did!! Fucking annoying that I pushed myself to keep going when it didn’t make any difference. Ah well. I will enjoy a much needed break from the gym today. Getting sick of that place!
+30/12/10
Pissed off that I gained from yesterday. HOW THE HELL?! 137.8lb (or something around that) ffs.
Rich tea biscuit 40
Hot chocolate x2 68
Brown bread toasted w/ reduced sugar jam 120
Banana 100
Pasta 250
Going to have pineapple 100, yogurt 65 and grapes 40 later.
750 burnt at the gym.
I was supposed to be only eating fruit today. -__- However; I wasn’t going to go to the gym but I went anyway so that’s a positive. I didn’t plan to eat pasta for dinner but my mum made me a special vegetarian version, so I had a bit.
AHHH I NEED TO BE 135LB BY SATURDAY!!!
+29/12/10
Cereal with soy milk 100
Tiny piece of bread 20
Chicken sandwich 280
Soup 100
Pear 80
Mini vege sausages 100
Raisins 40
Hot chocolate 34
Grapes 40
Pineapple 100
And I burnt 600 at gym. Healthy day. Depending on my weight tomorrow morning, I may liquid fast tomorrow. I’m going shopping on Saturday and really want to be able to buy my 135lb reward (cardigan from Topshop)!!!
+28/12/10
Egg 100
Toast 100
Raisins 40
Cereal bar 80
Soup 130
1/2 Turkey Sandwich 130
Smoothie 100
I burnt off 700 calories at the gym and walked for 25 mins so…we’ll say 800 calories burnt. I might have some toast and something else to eat later, so estimating calories at 900-ish.
I am supposed to be losing weight the healthy way, but I can feel myself slipping back into my old ways i.e. eating very little. I don’t know if that’s a good or bad thing? I hope I don’t fuck things up by binging. I’m really scared of gaining weight after my fast yesterday…ahajkfhshgsdhgk no matter how little I eat, I’m still worried that I’ll gain weight. Well that’s what I get for weighing every day.
+27/12/10
smoothie 100
hot chocolate 34
spoonful of chocolate spread (yeah I cheated a bit) 60
soup with a tiny bit of turkey (cheated again) 150
And I burnt 700 at the gym.
I haven’t “eaten” like this in so long…I am trying to lose weight the healthy way but I decided to do a liquid fast to feel healthier after the shit I ate the past few days. I’m going to have two more hot chocolates and diet coke for the rest of the night. I’ll be watching Inbetweeners until the wee hours again. ^_^
Hopefully a big loss tomorrow. But I still feel fat.
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